I did my first shift at my new job yesterday. It was horrific. When I’m stressed (I mean REALLY stressed) I don’t eat. Then once I recover, I binge. I deliberately ate breakfast before I left, knowing I wasn’t going to get anything else until late afternoon, and that was an effort because I was a bit nervous. I had shopping to get straight afterwards as well, and one of the golden rules is DON’T GO FOOD SHOPPING ON AN EMPTY STOMACH.
I had nothing to worry about – I was so stressed when I left work I actually abandoned the shopping. I was in a supermarket next to the coffee house I’m working in, and everything was all new to me. I couldn’t cope. I literally grabbed a few items and went to the till and got the hell out of there. I just wanted to go home. So I did. I knew that it was likely that I’d head straight in the door and binge, so I deliberately took the dog for a walk round the farm. Now here is a dangerous situation – I needed to eat, (112 calories is NOT enough to sustain a person 9-5) but I knew I would overdo it and end up hating myself. I had no idea what to do, so I waited until dinner. Unfortunately, this was nearly 9 o’clock by the time James came in from work. I was so upset with myself, I went straight to bed afterwards.
I worry about this because I do not want a job to affect me so badly that it screws up the eating habits that I am working so hard to build – is every shift going to be like this? If so, I may have to revert to being temporarily unemployed.
This is a prime example of how NOT to eat. I basically ended up starving myself all day, and then having a meal before bed. My total calorie consumption yesterday was around 700. This is not what I was aiming for, as undereating is just as bad as overeating, and doesn’t fit into the ‘normal’ eating habits I hope to get into, and smacks of many faddy diets and fanatical under-eaters.
I am not on a diet. I am making healthier food choices that will last a lifetime. Browsing the web for ‘thinspiration’, I am shocked and appalled at the various methods, eating plans and habits of some people in a desperation to lose the pounds. Take the recently publicised ‘5:2’ diet – 2 days of ‘fasting’ (even though you get to eat stuff) and 5 days of doing what you want. The claim to this is that it mimics our more prehistoric ancestors eating habits and food availability. We are not our prehistoric ancestors. Our digestive systems have evolved, just like the rest of us – And really, are you going to spend the rest of your life eating less than 500 calories 2 days a week? Don’t think so.
Any ‘diet’ that cuts out food groups completely sends alarm bells ringing in my head also. No carbs? Not sustainable. I give exception to vegetarians/vegans on a moral basis, but in terms of trying to lose weight it’s not the answer. Programmes like Weight Watchers are exceptionally good, and encourage the thought behind the food – there’s nothing that you can’t eat, but you need to balance higher calorie foods with lower calorie options and a bit of exercise.
If you want to lose weight, do it sensibly, and your body will tell you when it is time to stop. If you don’t do it sensibly, you end up ill, or piling the weight back on when you return to eating the way you did before. Remember – weight can go up and down, so once you reach a target weight, you need to keep yourself there, so form habits of a lifetime……
That goes for exercise too!